“In the stillness of your presence, you can feel your own formless and timeless reality as the unmanifested life that animates your physical form. You can then feel the same life deep within every other human and every other creature. You look beyond the veil of form and separation. This is the realization of oneness. This is love.”
~ Echart Tolle
Josette sat in one of the rehearsal spaces at the Shanachie Theater. Alone with her thoughts and the synopsis for the ballet company’s latest production
Le Corsaire, Josette read through the overview of the ballet, its prologue which opens the story on the open sea, a rescue operation already underway to the bazaar and pirate caves and finally a battle in a palace. It all sounded like a grand adventure with exotic sets and extravagant costumes, yet the young ballerina felt a keen sense of disconnection. An unshakable sadness settled as she read the pages one more time…a kindred feeling to
something within the tale that she could not quite yet put her finger on.
You cannot dance this ballet, Josette, if you choose to judge it. Any part of it. You will do as you have always done. With every costume you have slipped into from lifetime to lifetime. You will make it your own.
The voice rose up within her like a desert oasis though rather than calm and replenish it forced a rigidity into her limbs, the words making her tense as her insides felt cold and hollow. How like that voice to surreptitiously scrutinize her thoughts and recon her reticence, thus far, to embrace the role of Medora. Sure, she had to play the love interest of Dante, something the arrogant Black Eagle had been crowing about since the casting assignments came down, but there was
morethere and her serious conversation with the foreign born ballerino still lingered in her ears—the words a bridge to topic of slavery and the lives such a terrible thing had touched, its repugnant ripples echoing throughout time.
“Do you think these things are a thing of the past?” Dante asked as he stretched upon the barre. They
still happen. In this very city, in fact. Your brother warns you away from dockside for a reason. Still, it is our job to dance the tale of
Le Corsaire and let each audience member take from it what they will, si?”
Josette enjoyed being able to get to know Rhodes through working together. She trusted him as a partner onstage. Fight choreography required an
immense amount of trust for both partners. Even as their bodies tangled like the delicate branches of trees, Josette wielded the stage blade with a certain
fierce intensity and easy familiarity—as if the art of defending herself with a blade had been taught to her at an early age. A bit breathless, even as the two mimed the fight, it brought up unpleasant memories, but it was their job to convey to the audience that this fight was indeed
veryreal.
“He’s threatened by you, you know.” Spoken to Rhodes softly one day after rehearsal. She swept a bit of soft her dark hair back from the long nape of that graceful neck that had come loose from dancing the fight scene with Rhodes. “Dante would not be acting this way if he did not see something in you that he knew was utterly
magnetic to the audience. It’s no excuse, I know. But you hold your own, you’re not cowed—and you don’t dance to compete and it shows. You bring something special to this stage that no one else can, Rhodes.”
A look to the clock and she uttered a soft curse in French. She was late for her costume fitting. Into her bag went her water bottle, towel and all the rest of her things before she was
fluttering from the room as she rushed to her fitting. “We’ll run it
again later, yes? Thank you, Rho.” A soft smile for the young
ballerino.
“There now…” One of the costume assistants murmured to Josette as she settled the gossamer veil atop Josette’s head. Long fingers lightly plucked at it to ensure it fell and draped as it should about the girl’s head and shoulders. “Such an enchanting look.” She commented as she eyed Josette’s light blue costume which left more flesh exposed than not. “We’ll start a bidding war with this look, hm?” She gently teased Josette. It was a stunning creation, the blue as light and soft as a dawn sky, the golden head piece glittering in the light and just enough red woven into the costume to create a stark contrast against
her soft skin.
Still—Josie did not
feel beautiful in that particular moment. She felt like property. The veil settled like a stone weight about her, the little star aware in her vibrating DNA that a veil like this was a sign of ownership. It had originally meant to be a sign of respectability and high-born status. It was meant to seclude while slaves and prostitutes were forbidden the veil as a sign of their public availability. To Josette, it was a prison sentence. Either way, she keenly felt the pain and anguish within her cells and cellular memories.
When Josette was lifted upon auction dais by Lankendem to dance at the Pasha’s behest as he peeked beneath her veil, she could not help but feel the trauma such a location had endured. She could feel the vibration in her feet as she was set upon the altar of slavery and though it was, in this performance, a figurative sale, Josette distinctly felt the pain which had soaked into the very wood the set piece was built upon like the tears spilled by shattered families, by the blood of the defiant. Even the trees who had given the timber for its construction wept. It all soaked into the tiny ballerina as it threatened to choke her like an iron collar or smoke, burn her like a master’s brand, or flames all around her.
Witch
Thoughts of standing alongside Fia flashed through her mind. A
memory? A delicate hand raised to her throat unconsciously as memories of collars and ropes came flooding back to her and she could not seem to hold them back.
Your cells carry ancient memories. Let them go.
The night of the performance, there was a soft inhale of the Rose’s scent as if to strengthen her resolve before tossing the flower down to Dante’s Conrad. It was the symbol of a receptive vessel for the soul, the rose whose cup-like sepals supported the petals which bloomed to receive the influence of the Divine Feminine. The ancient Mesopotamian goddess Inanna, who preceded the western Aphrodite as the Goddess of Love and was originally associated with the planet Venus, claimed the rosette as her icon. The rose was a symbol of eternal love, its vibrational frequencies something much deeper that resonated
within her cells. Josie knew all too well that some were
forced into such a life of servitude and slaver, that others even
chose it whether it be for protection, pleasure, or that it was their chosen path to feel free—even
empowered.
As a result, during the performance of her first
entrance to her slave variation as
Medora , Josette lifted her chin as she was lifted upon that auction block. Salome herself could not have enchanted more as Josette danced her variation for the Pasha and cast off all judgments like veils, each a new layer of utter vulnerability revealed. It was not Inanna’s descent into the Underworld, though there was a hint of an echo of the sultry Sumerian’s steps, but more of an
ascension of sorts as she danced for herself and for each woman or man that had either chosen the veil or chose to rip it away.
The sound of coins changing hands ripped her from the moment to signal the end of her variation. They blazed like the sun whose light they caught in the stage lights as they exchanged hands all about her, as her worth and life were bartered on and haggled over. There was a price to pay, be it in a high price auction in a Mesopotamian marketplace or the Nile.
No Judgment
Jamie’s variation took her breath away as she saw her dance partner defy gravity with his leaps as Ali. Even now, her dance partner surprised her with what he brought to each role and his skill as he commanded the stage amazed her. When together with Brianna as Gulnare, the two dancers wove a heady opium induced dream like a veritable harem of flowers as the two moved together as unique and beautiful blooms about the stage. Enchanting the audience each night with the fervor of a fever dream.
There was also a quiet moment that Josette took each night during the performance to gather the roses that had been cast upon the stage. Who knew what secrets she whispered to the blooms? They would forever remain within each of the petals.