Re: Dún Scáith Presents: Lupercalia 2019
Posted: Sun Feb 17, 2019 9:26 pm
Charlie's thumb drags across the flier.
His skin fills the spaces where the paper's creased; his eye rewrites the words the coffee painted over. There's a P gilded in calligraphy, P looping into O before ending with an E, coffee puddled where the word should be. The waitress smiles and lays a hand on his. Charlie turns and keeps his face away from what the light inflicts.
She says, oh darlin'. Y'all thinkin' about goin' to that old thing?
His hand withdraws, a turtle back inside its shell of fraying cotton. Her fingers skim his sleeve then land noisy on the counter. Nails too long, hibiscus lacquered on the red. Charlie watches her through the mirror the napkin dispenser makes: one brow starts to rise, the latitudes interrupted on her forehead.
Bless your heart, she says out loud, then lays a palm upon her chest. Carpetbagger, when she turns her back to him.
No one else in the diner other than him. The smell of old grease trapped under the laminate. Stuffing poked through the vinyl stools. Charlie sits and listens to the silence longer than the silence likes. And then his eye shuts for the briefest of moments to allow him a dream.
He dreams of a face made whole. He dreams there's a man who looks like him. Hair bleached to some kind of sunlit-ethereal, some kind of tattoo drawing an orbit over an eye, eyes like tiny stars burning towards him from some kind of --
Honey, the waitress turns shrill. You only paid for one coffee.
Charlie opens his mouth. His beard tickles his clavicle.
Yes, he says, yes, and pulls the strings until the hoodie puckers on his head.
The waitress watches him leave. He takes the flier along. A mailbox offers itself as a table. On the back of the flier, he remembers a poem.
How in the name of Heaven can he escape
That defiling and disfigured shape
The mirror of malicious eyes
Casts upon his eyes until at last
He thinks that shape must be his shape?
Where the flier leads turns to more people and more noise. A crowd of noise. And through the door, he sees the facsimile. Braided golden hair. Golden eyes. Charlie wonders if it's his brain that stutters, or if it's --
Sirens too close. His head turns down the block. His head turns the other direction. People too close.
His fist balls the flier. Charlie stops a bouncer outside and burdens him with words, first his own and then the ones he had borrowed.
I need you to pass this along, he says. The bouncer opens his palm. Charlie covers it with a five dollar bill. Please, he says.
The sirens are closer. He leaves before they arrive.
His skin fills the spaces where the paper's creased; his eye rewrites the words the coffee painted over. There's a P gilded in calligraphy, P looping into O before ending with an E, coffee puddled where the word should be. The waitress smiles and lays a hand on his. Charlie turns and keeps his face away from what the light inflicts.
She says, oh darlin'. Y'all thinkin' about goin' to that old thing?
His hand withdraws, a turtle back inside its shell of fraying cotton. Her fingers skim his sleeve then land noisy on the counter. Nails too long, hibiscus lacquered on the red. Charlie watches her through the mirror the napkin dispenser makes: one brow starts to rise, the latitudes interrupted on her forehead.
Bless your heart, she says out loud, then lays a palm upon her chest. Carpetbagger, when she turns her back to him.
No one else in the diner other than him. The smell of old grease trapped under the laminate. Stuffing poked through the vinyl stools. Charlie sits and listens to the silence longer than the silence likes. And then his eye shuts for the briefest of moments to allow him a dream.
He dreams of a face made whole. He dreams there's a man who looks like him. Hair bleached to some kind of sunlit-ethereal, some kind of tattoo drawing an orbit over an eye, eyes like tiny stars burning towards him from some kind of --
Honey, the waitress turns shrill. You only paid for one coffee.
Charlie opens his mouth. His beard tickles his clavicle.
Yes, he says, yes, and pulls the strings until the hoodie puckers on his head.
The waitress watches him leave. He takes the flier along. A mailbox offers itself as a table. On the back of the flier, he remembers a poem.
How in the name of Heaven can he escape
That defiling and disfigured shape
The mirror of malicious eyes
Casts upon his eyes until at last
He thinks that shape must be his shape?
Where the flier leads turns to more people and more noise. A crowd of noise. And through the door, he sees the facsimile. Braided golden hair. Golden eyes. Charlie wonders if it's his brain that stutters, or if it's --
Sirens too close. His head turns down the block. His head turns the other direction. People too close.
His fist balls the flier. Charlie stops a bouncer outside and burdens him with words, first his own and then the ones he had borrowed.
I need you to pass this along, he says. The bouncer opens his palm. Charlie covers it with a five dollar bill. Please, he says.
The sirens are closer. He leaves before they arrive.